Sahara Entries

2009-05-30T00:56:00.001+08:00

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2008-12-27T02:20:00.002+08:00

39.7 degrees
38.9 degrees
37.6 degrees
fever's down..
headache stays..
brething stabled..
sleepless nite still..

That was how i spent my past 3 days..
lord i've been sickly..
help me lord..
help me..

Dear allah,
i was reading thru my previous enteries since i cant sleep
im nt feeling sad or anything..
i just think its time i really move on allah
im using u as my strength allah
im 21 rite
its time i think maturedly & leave things to fate..
i need your help iin this..
u noe it allah.. i noe u do
Allahuakhbar..

Love,
Sahara

*Sahara..Feels blessed..

2008-12-22T21:05:00.008+08:00

Life's beautiful these days..
Although there are people who are stilll out to spoil my day..
Putting them ASIDE..
Sahara HAPPY!
hehehehehehhehehehe...

Let me update 4 Major Happenings that makes me S.M.I.L.E!
(in accordance to when the event takes place)

No 1: Alumni Nite..
18 Dec 08 (pm)

U don wanna noe how mad i became..
A hottie & a hunkie..
wat more can a women want!
esp SINGLE WOMEN like ME!!!
OMG OMG OMG

Meet up with the 3 lovely pple in my life..
& sat waiting to be amazed :)

Then in comes the HOTTIE...

U should see him that day.. OMG!

Then in come the Man of dreams..
The hunk that made me scream..
HABA HABA!
I couldn't breathe when he held me..
geez...

MAJOR MELTZDOWN...

This is the 3 Generation Assistant Head of Make-up..
I adore :)

The love that made me never forget ever littlest things abt MCH :)

No 2: Went shopping with Mama & Sis
& had lunch with Idah dear
20 Dec 08 (am)

No pictures for this as its safe in my heart..
IDAH!!! I cant wait for 27th & 31st! Woohooo :)

No 3: JJ 21st Bdae celebration!
20 Dec 08 (pm)

OUH!!

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY JJ!! :)
She looks like an angel i tell ya :)

HOUSE OF FAME..
The Million DOllar expression
heheheheheheheh

He kissed this 2 ladies a couple of times..
DEE was his favourite! hahaha

Well he din kissed me..
but we took a beautiful picture together :)

Then we HIT the dance floor!
Woohooo..
Madness..
It came to a halt when Andy gave his little brother..
a taste of his ass..
geez...
hahaha oh well :)

Then we all head home..
feeling high & happy!
Well except for Andy's Brother
HAHAHAHAHA :)

N0 4: Eating session with Grandma, Mama, Dad & Sis
21 Dec 08 (whole day!)

B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L!

Mom & Grandmom..
I love them like loads..
:)

Dad as usuall..
Caught during his most unglam..
hehehe

& OF COURSE..

The 2 happy Sisters :)

What more can i say..

Im one blessed DIVA :)

Still Missing u :)

Love,

Sahara

*Sahara.. Shhhh..

2008-12-17T19:31:00.004+08:00

Hey yo..

Let this be an entry before i start kicked my way to work tmr..
After 2 long weeks of stayin' home..
Im gg back to work..

Sitting home can be tough sometimes..
I mean doin nothing..
lazing around..
Can be dreadful..
But thank god this Flower never fails to make me smile :)

Pretty Rite?!
I like :)

Stayin' home has enable me to do many many things..
like..

Get my hands all coated with Flour & stuff..

COOKIES!!..

I love to make cookies when im..
bored..
sad..
bored..
happy..
bored..
uncertain..
bored..

basically when im bored! hehehe..
Yummy..
I made one huge bottle of cookies..
It was so popular..
within 2 days..
imagine that!
within 2 days..
Half of it was gone in a FLASH..
I like!
Pple appreciate my hardwork..
haha..
:)

Ouh i oso made something yummy!
SPAGETTHI..
WoooHOOOooooo :)

So..
its not that bad sitting at home sometimes..

Ouh!
Dad bought this thick Baking Book for Mama..
I peeped thru..
I LIKE!!!
Many many many many interesting recipes..
Cookies.. Cakes.. Muffins..Pie.. Tarts.. Cheesecake!
Woohooo..

Well my favs are cookies..
the rest im trying to dare myself to make them :)

OUH OUH..
If u're looking for a change in language, sound & music..
try listening to Ballads sung by
PARK HYO SHIN..

OMG OMG OMG..
MADNESSS..

His voice just melts any Warm Blooded WOMEN'S heart..
I like..

(p/s: the song on this blog is sung by him!)

What more can i say..
Sahara had a fruitful "Forced Leave"
tmr back to work yo!
Im missing pple in AWWA :)

I miss u..

Mama miss u too :)

Love,

Sahara

*Sahara..Superhuman~

2008-12-14T23:05:00.002+08:00

At times..
She was so sure its time to let go..
Sometimes she knows the step she takes will be worth it..
but still..
She gets confused of her own decisions..
& she feels like running away..

But where else can she goes..
She has to go thru this

& so she tell herself she will..
for no one else can help her thru this..
no one but herself..

*Sahara.. Flower Letters~

2008-12-06T19:25:00.006+08:00

Sahara would like to take this opportunity

to thank all her beloved friends & ever loving family members

for ever cherishing me with all your love & concerns..

Im happy to have every single one of u in my life

& i have never regretted meeting each & every one of u :)

Though i din spent time with Idah as planned on my Bdae..

But hey!We promised to meet up again rite idah dear :)

hehe..

My legs healing..
i thank god for that..
Im sure it becos of the many prayers pple say out for me..
:D

After work on the 3rd Dec..
Went out with the CFC gang...
had a farewell party for Aniza dear as it was her last day @ AWWA..
i also had my share..
we had fun..
laughed like madness..
really..
I mean i was as usual making fun of the waiter..
oppssss...
I think i fell after dat cos someone cursed me for being noty!
geezx :X

We order food & cakes from Secret Recipes..
We shared ard the table..
i like! :)

Banana Cake! Yum Yum

Chocolate Cake.. Another Yum Yum :)

Brownie with Ice-Cream.. Wohooo! :D

We dropped by Swenden for Ice-Cream too!
I've been having this bad bad craving for Ice-cream..
Hhahhaha:)

Meet the beautiful pple who never fail to make me smile..
(pardon me.. i lazy to rotate the pics)
In random order :)

MARINA the BUDAK BUDAK...

PARAMES the Mak Bedah

HUIQI the GIGGLER..

KIM the SABOR SAHARA QUEEN..

ANIZA the MAK BUDAK..
I cannot take it when she look @ me like that!

DEE the BUDAK KENET...
:)

After that..
the drama takes place..
i don wish to spell out what happen then..
BAD BAD BAD..
But all i can say..
i was thinking of him..
yes i was.. &..
gedebak gedebik gedebUK......
geezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....
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When i manage to get home..
It was a touching moment..
the chaos the worries..
im touched..
after we all calmed down..
& the clock hits 12midnite..
the cake emerged from... hehhee...

they sang for me despite me in pain..
i was in pain but looking @ the cake & smiles from Mama, Papa & Sis..
i was blessed..
the pain gone la sey!..

We were suppose to have a treasure hunt..
Sis made a Map.. You noe just like DORA THE EXPLORER..
& I was suppose to find for my presents..
hahahaha..
i missed it..
i cant move abt..
sis end up taking all the gifts out from the secret spot..
& i only had to open them up ine by one..
mann..
I WAN ANOTHER TREASURE HUNT CAN!!!
I want to hunt for my present..
pls pls pls :)

When u open them..
this is what u get!!!

YELLOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG OMG OMG..
I sooooo the HAPPY can..
I was like in an all yellow world..
WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :)

HAPPY!

Morning of the holy 4th dec..
i woke up all ready for the hospital..
the pain was unbearable.COM!
limped ma way to the cab with sis & dad..
Waited like ages @ the A&E and got my right foot casted..
Ouh at the same time never ending wishes from all ma beloved filled my hp..
till my phone goes flat! haha..
Thanks all i love u so very the much :)

When i was done..
Dad says Bro Hir was rushed to TTSH where i was..
he has appendix & has to be operated immediately!
Geezzz..

Imagine the panic mama & papa had..
i think its much more unbearable en ma pain..
i have to say me & ma siblings are lucky to have Mama & Papa..
i truly can say that out loud! :D

When things settled down for Bro, we headed home..
Spent the rest of the days at home just like how mama had prayed for..
hahaha..

I once asked her
"Mama, how are we gg to celebrate my 21st?"
She said..
"We sit @ home & watch TV"
EXACTLY!.. i did just that..
hehehe..

When strike 9pm.
Got a phone call from Mummy Toh..
She's heading my place..
wanted to give me a surprise but ended up confused which floor i was at..
HAHAHAHAHAH...

She came & celebrated ma bdaae with me!
HOW SWEET CAN THAT BE..
I LOVE U MUMMY TOH!!
LIKE OMG can..
i was alone feeling like dying & sad (well not that sad till i died)..
i mean i wanted someone to at least be singing ma bdae song with..
& there u are..
an angle sent by god..
hehehehe..
love u extra loads!

Can u guys see how happy i was
despite looking te worse..
hahah :X

Look at me praying..
i look like an angle rite..
No? Neh? Oh well..
i happy so?
:D

Today Nen & Dee dropped by..

They gave me huge bunch of BANANAsssss..

Woohoooo..

Im enjoying it..

Eating it while typing this..

hahahahhahahaha..

Now i am so sure i can heal faster..

i have my banana!

OUH!

Apologies to NORHUDA BTE OMAR!

i swear i din receive ur call & i wonder y..

I was anxiously waiting for ur call actually but i din receive..

wonder y..

god! i owe u one..

lets meet up b4 sch reopens ok!

i miss MAYA too :)

Alrite..

till we meet again..

Thanks all for ur prayers..

im blessed truly am..

Despite falling becos of u..

u still don emerged infront of me..

but u have never left my prayers & never will..

maybe now that im 21 i noe what i need..

& i need someone like u..

Love

Sahara

*Sahara..I Love him like i Do i...

2008-12-04T01:49:00.003+08:00

A sprained ankle on ur bdae is definitely not a good start..
But come to think abt it..
this happened for a reason..
Maybe allah wants to remind me not to forget my family on my bdae..
Im blessed.. i truly am.. though im in pain..
geez..

Happy 21st Sahara! :)

Love
Sahara

*Sahara.. all i want for Bdae is You..

2008-11-29T23:00:00.005+08:00

Today was loved..

I was late as per normal..
Got lost as per normal..
Stepped into the cafe like a star as per normal..
laughed like mad as per normal..
mad fun of Marcel as per normal..
couldn't stand up from my seat as per normal..
sang out loud as per normal..
had fun as per normal..
missing my girlfrens now as per normal..

& i truly miss this kinda life like REALLY!!!

I LOVE TODAY!!

Met up with my clique..
Nasreen, Aqilah, Marcel & Syam..
had the fun of our life..
seriously when we 5 are together..
We goooooooo MADDDDDDDD..
hahaha...

Met at Minds Cafe..
Cool place..
Bugis is truly our fav hang out spot..

Victory, Mama shop..
Starbuck & bugis (close down liao)
Bugis street for shopping (Marcel's the queen!)
Swensen meet up before Fasting month..
& now Minds Cafe..

All this in Bugis..
I love!
Bugis is our spot ladies..

if i happen to go missing one day,
find me at Bugis..
i might be there :)

ouh! another place is Fullerton One starbucks!
My place too :)

Thanks lovelies for the CHARLES & KEITH SHADES!

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I ADORE..TRULY..REALLY..MADLY!

& a CAKE (brownie one..yum tum) i love u all..

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i tot we're meeting to give Nasreen a beautiful surprise faarewell..

but i also have a share..

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The 2 HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL..
(though it advance Birthday..i still love!)

what more can u ask! THANKS!

Those shades is my 1st official Bdae gift..
Sahara HAPPY!..

Its next week that im turning 21 bt i got it already from u all..
Thanks lovesss...

Lets meet again when our beloved Nasreen is back from her U-La-la...

Cant wait! What is life w/o u all? MADNESS :)

Sorry to Dayana & Diana for not being able to join u all..
i so wanted too.. but mama.. haiz.. u noe i noe..
did u girls go Fullerton One? Darn.. i missed..
that's my fav spot!
oh well another time.. promise! :)

Ouh.. what did i get for myself this bdae & X-Mas period..
Mind u i love X-mas..
i truly do..
the songs.. the atmosphere..the gifts xchange..
everything abt x-mas i love.. hahaha..

i got myself..

Eee PC 701..GAH!!!! :D

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SAHARA'S ONE TRULY HAPPY GIRL!
Thanks all for making it a memorable one!
:D

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Love,
Sahara

*Sahara..HAPPY!.. I miss all this u noe :) ...

2008-11-25T00:20:00.002+08:00

How do i tell u i miss u so...

It has been madness at work..
nothing new.. i noe i noe..
My kids are not around..
School Holiday..
i miss having them around..
without them i feel empty..
they are the ones that fill my empty heart
geez..
ok sara! stop it
Stop it abt work...
now lets talk abt last SATURDAY!!

i truly love that Saturday
im just waiting for the pics to complete the picture..
get to meet with my lovelies & some other wonderful pple along the way..
went over to our normal spot..
the spot that holds much of our secrets & tears..
but that nite..
u can only hear laughter & teases..
I LIKE! :)

I shall not mention y i was overly happy..
my sweethearts should noe..
but i shall mentioned it out loud here..
HE SENT ME HOME IN HIS CAR & I SAT IN THE FRONT SEAT WITH HIM!
HE SENT ME ALL THE WAY UNDER MY BLOCK & I AM SO HAPPY!
DONT JEALOUS ALL...
we chatted like we've known each other long..
he open up stories he hold or shouldn't have told & listened to mine too..
what more can u ask for ladies!
wahahahahahahahaha :P

ok..full stop on that.. :)

Once i get hold of the pics i'll post them up..
but wait!!
i have a lot of other pictures im suppose to post up..
My Bangkok Trip..for drey
My Dinner & Dance..for seha
My daily livings..for u
My happiness..for u
My sadness..for u
My hero..for myself

Many many..
i just can say..
IM LAZY!!!
geez!

its a button away but i just dread the tot of waiting..
i've waited all my life..
& im still waiting..
so i don wan to wait anymore..
waiting for u is sufficating me enough..
opps.. that's a secret..

Love,
Sahara

*Sahara..he send me home..he send me home..Seha don jealous! :P

2008-11-05T21:44:00.004+08:00

I'm sorry..

Im feeling really bad..
But i shall not say anything cos watever i say seems to be like an excuse..
punish me all u want..
but im dissapointed u aint understand & u don trust our frenship..
if this had happen so many times..
u should tell me..
have there been a day when i scold u for telling me the truth?

i noe im wrong..
even sorries cant change the fact i did wrong, rite?
anyway.. my sorries never did change anything rite..

turmoils in my heart..
that week so many happened.. did u noe?
i blame myself for not telling u..
but i don want u to worry over this ungrateful fren of urs..
u're pack with ur own problems & unhappiness..
i dont wanna add it on..

im angry with myself for always making the wrong choice..
im angry with myself cos each time i wish to think for myself i make the wrong choice..
im angry with myself cos i cant keep simple promises..
im angry with myself cos each time i say sorry, i still do it again..

anyway.. i only have myself to blame..
im sorry dear fren for hurting u..
im not worth..
i noe..

*Sahara..Feeling numb~

2008-09-20T00:20:00.004+08:00

Hey y'all..

How's life?
Hope things gg well..
Its been sometime since im here..
I noe i noe..
I lost touch with many a things..
I even forgot my password..
really that bad rite..

life for me has been gg well..
beside work & falling ill..
im helping mama make hari raya goodies!

yeah!
hari raya coming yo!
& i still have no nice cloths i can fit in!
darn..
im still as rolly polly as ever..
hehe..
CUTE! thats more important..
lalalalala :)

i need to do a lot of catching up mann..
my frens my family my life..
it has been really bad lately..
i need to start doin things i love to do..
making frens..
smiling..
being the strong sahara everyone look upon to.
i need to move this ass of mine yo!

but still..
some part of me aint moving
some part of me is still in the history
some part of me not coorperating..
how how how?
& i think the most important thing is..
the fact that (I need You)..

Love,
sahara

The fact is (I need You)
Jill Scott

I can pay my own light bill, baby
Pump my own gas in my own car
I can buy my own shoe collection
I've been blessed thus far

I can kill the spider above my bed
Although it's hard because I'm scared
I can even stain and polyurethane
But some things just don't change

I need you..yeah..
Sometimes so hard to say..oh
I need you
Some things remain

I can buy my own groceries baby
Get my hair tight, my nails right
I can floss my own bling-bling
Write the the words to the songs I sing

I can even raise the child we'll make
Make sure he's loved and knows what God gave..us
I can teach him how to walk and stand
But I need you to help him be a man
We need you
so hard to say..
we need you..
Some things don't change

I could be congresswoman or a garbage woman
Or police officer or a carpenter
I could be a doctor and a lawyer
Or a mother and a Good God, whatcha done to me
Kind of lover I can be

I could be a computer analyst
The queen with the nappy hair, raising her fist
Or I could be much more and a myraid of this
Hot as the summer
Sweet as the first kiss

And even though I can do all these things
I need you
And even though I can do all these things
We need you
(And you need us too)

*Sahara.. But somethings just dont change~

2008-09-06T20:48:00.002+08:00

I hate the fact i still miss you..
Im guity towards him cos i still miss you..
I hate the fact as much as i pray hard to forget you..
I still cant..

People ask..
Who am i missing..
Who are you?..
You're so mysterious to them..
What i always do is..

I just smile to them..
for i miss you so much..
i cant bring myself to say your name..
i might just break down at the mention of your name..

Love
Sahara

Lemar
What about love

What if I took my time to love you?
What if I put no one above you?
What if I did the things
That really mattered?
What if I ran through
Hoops of disaster?

No one would care if
We never made it
We're in this alone
So why don't we face it
There is no room to
Blame one another
We just need time to
Forgive each other

[Chorus:]
What about love?
What about feeling?
What about all the things that make life worth living?
What about faith?
What about trust?
And tell me baby...what about us?

How can I give this
Love a new beginning?
How can I stop the rain?
It's never ending
How do I keep my soul believing?
Memories of how we
Should be keep calling

[Chorus]
What about love?
What about feeling?
What about all the things that make life worth living?
What about faith?
What about trust?
And tell me baby...what about us?

I'll take the rivers rise
I'll take the happy times
I'll take the moments of disaster

[Chorus]
What about love?
What about feeling?
What about all the things that make life worth living?
What about faith?
What about trust?
And tell me baby...what about us?

*Sahara.. What about Love?~

2008-08-04T21:34:00.003+08:00

Hello life..

it has been sometime since im here..
1 mth? geez dats really long..
i've been locking myself from the world..
from the world outside my work boundaries..
bad huh..

now i see myself as those who has no life..
after work, they go home & shut down..
dats wat im doin..
im shutting down pretty often these days..
my immune has been really bad..
its a major madness to me..
sitting directly under the aircon aint helping..

anyway..
if some of u are wondering wat im doin now..
pretty much different from when im in school..
the only similar thing is im doing HR!
hehe

i told everyone i aint really love HR esp the admin part..
the meeting pple & getting to know pple..
dat i love..

but now being nearly 21
im changing my mentality..
im trying my very best to go all out..
though my body is reacting not in-line..
im still trying really hard..

opportunities are shining in AWWA..
well not really as a HR person..
but as other things..
hidden talents are show cased..
& positive feedbacks are given.
i hope more to come..
due to all this im enjoying my time..
but i think my systems are not ready for it..

im falling ill quite often..
fever, flu, cough u name it..
i have it all..
infact im sick now..
pple from office is shooo-ing me away..
they aint want me to spread the germs..
but u noe la..
me n docters never click..

oh well..
i pray to god i will be fine..
one thing is for sure i need to get a life..
but i think mama finds my life now just fine..
she said..
she likes the idea of me coming home after work & resting..
rather en coming late at nite after school/cca & even super de busy on saturdays..

She said this is how a lady shld be..
be nice n remain at home..
cos in the end.. I... yes Me will end up in the kitchen..
geez..

Get married n the kitchen is urs..
i hate the tot of it..
cos i don even have anyone to spent the rest of my time with..
how to end up in the kithchen!
hehe

oh well..
each time i tell that to mama..
she will talk abt saudara..
i miss him..
i really do..
i haven been seeing him..
i haven been gg home with him..
i haven been meeting him at the lift..
i haven been seeing him thru my kitchen window..
i haven been walking along side with him..
i haven been talking to him..
how?
i haven been doing anything much with him..
&
i haven stop missing him..

bad
bad
bad

he has always been my new inspiration..
since mama likes him..
i will like him too..
hehe..
wrong mentality huh!?
but oh well..
im a nice girl who listen to mama u see..
so if mama say him..
i say him..
so if u in any way..
wants to get close to me..
get close to mama first..
its a brilliant step!
hehe

if u sits in mama good book..
u will sit in mine..
if u sit in her bad bad book..
which some of the men i known of has..
u are oh so dead..
hehe..

oh well..
if any case..
any of u hopes to read my next entry..
all i can say is don expect much..
cos im enjoying every moment of me shutting down after work..
i will try my best to find time for the technologies..
if not..
its just a phone call away..
u can always talk to me..
:)

till then everyone..
even u Mr...
eventhough no matter how far u are..
or how close we can be but never realise,
take care & god bless..

ring/text me up if u miss me!
cos then u noe how much i miss u too
:)

love,
sahara

*Sahara..Bobby Tinsley-Time~

2008-06-29T20:51:00.003+08:00

How are u?
Are you doing fine there?
Do you... remember me?..

Never has those qn left my mind..
Time heals everything..
everyone says that..
but time is still not doin its job for me..

it has been 4 years now...
i don noe how long more will i get to erase u..
maybe cos i said..
i.l.u too early..

sometimes i regretted the things i said..
the things i do..
the things i yearn..
but..
love wont let me wait..

"its good enough you are in my fren list"
it hurts..
it still does..

its good enough?
i don think im even good enough for anyone..
you threw me so hard to the ground..
i lost all hopes on anyone..
i think im no good..
not only for u..
but anyone..

its sad to think that it end up this way..
anyway..
why shld u care..
it was my mistake..
i took this path..
you showed me the truth..
of how love really hurts...

you were my first..
but i was never yours to begin with..
i was too quick..
but..
love wont let me wait..
& i faced the consequences..

4 years..
its a long punishment..
it really is..

but..

Love wont let me wait..
still..

i end up waiting here..
hurting alone & waiting for TIME to heal everything..
sometimes i want you to move a little close to me..
sometimes i want you to hold me tight..
sometimes i need your love so desperately..
sometimes i need you to just be there for me..
but its all a dream..
a dream that will never come true..
sad.. but thats the truth i have to face..

Whatever it is..
you will forever be apart of me..
no one can take that away..

till then..
take care..
wherever you are..
pls know that..
i always care..

love
Sahara

*Sahara..Love wont let me wait~

2008-05-28T22:40:00.002+08:00

Im tired..
so to calm my senses down..
i sang..

So a tired Sahara plus a bored Sahara plus a "singer" plus a mic plus emo songs plus alone in the room equals too..

TADAH!!...
not nice just say nice ok!
make me happy can or not!

:)

b&w.mp3 -

superstar.mp3 -

superstar2.mp3 -

Love,
Sahara

*Sahara..Saudara~

2008-05-25T13:48:00.013+08:00

Friday & Saturday was total madness..
No sleep for me..
i was EXCITED, HAPPY, NERVOUS, OVER-WHELMED, PERPLEXED & LOTS MORE!

It was GRADUATION on Friday..
& Beloved Sis flying off to China on Saturday..

HECTIC!

3 years passed by really fast..
The memories.. the friendship.. everything..
is all i have left of NYP..
Now that i look back..
i must say..
my poly life is the best thing that ever happen to me..
im truly gonna miss every aspect of my past 3 years..
:)

Let the picture do the talking now!
:D

MY PILLARS..
Thanks to Mama & Papa for coming down..
& sharing this day with me
I love you both!
:)

NORDIANA!!
CAN U BELIEVE IT!
WE'VE GRADUATED!!!
:D

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You & ur mom!
:)

Our MOMs..

The beautiful pple i've spent my time with..
thanks for all the memories
:)

Nong Suraya..

Marjuk Bala!
Mama thought Marjuk was a huge mann or something..
but he turn out to be tall & skinny!
hehe

Kak Nong mom thought Marjuk was my BF!!
hahaha..
:P

Marcellian Arlany!
You've grown so much my child
:)

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Aqilah!
Pretty huh!
i like!
:)

Syamilah!
The Sunshine amg us
:)

Truly US!
The days in NYP would have never been the same if its not for u girls
:)

tHE bOY that have yet to jump down from level 20!..
The rest of us..
lets wait & watch
khhekehehehe...
=X

Jessica OI!!
:)

FARA & SARA!
:)

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mY fASHION iDOL!!!
NurULLLLLL
:)

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Lovely Seha drop by!
Thanks dear for coming..
Papa said u look like one of his admirer last time..
Mama jealous!
HAHAHAHAHA
:)

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tHE girls who keeps the class going!
:)

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My loves from A-team
:)

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Audrey dear!
I miss u so much!
:)

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BANIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BIG HUG!!
:)

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bEAUtiFUL Ziana
:)

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Fira in the HOUSE!
:)

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Mr Martin Hang..
who explained to Mama of me being a born leader..
& made Papa jealous cos he praised Mama looking good!
hahahahahah!!

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The Noughtics!
:)

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Grace Lam!
CRAZY AHHHHHHHHHHH!!
hehehe
=X

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My dear Shar!
:)

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Tee Jun yo!
:)

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Sweet mIRA
:)
i think she went bonkers
cos i made oh so much noise while waiting for our turn to receive our dips..
hahaha..:)

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Mummy Eva!
:)

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Wat can i say..
Im on HAPPY Graduate!
:)

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Saturday!
Sent sis off to the airport..
She's flying off to China!
Coolness rite!
CHINA!!
:)

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sHE ACT CUTE!
of Course la..
look at her sister..
the CUTEST!
hahaha
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The pple gg..
Girl face hidden behind la!
if i..
i stand infront sey!
My sis's a shy girl
hehe
:)

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Mama act Fierce!
hehe

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Bro Hir & Girl

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Girl's good fren
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Me & Her!

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Come back safe girl!
I'll miss u!
*hugs*.
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Till en everyone..
I wish all of u success in your future..
& those who have my number/msn..
lets keep in touch..
Friendship last forever...
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TAKE CARE!! :)
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love,
sahara
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*Sahara..He had something to say.. But the words didn't came out..

2008-05-19T20:06:00.006+08:00

Interesting events takes place everyday in pple's life..
for me..
My Friday & Saturday wasbeautiful & tiring!
:)

Friday nite was dinner with my new found friends..
yup they are my colleagues..
w/o them life would be boring at work..
although some might think its more of an age gap thing..
i have to say i love being with them..
i learn a lot..
seriously..
alot!
:)

things im not suppose to learn yet..
they taught me!
hahahaha
;X

We went to Breeks at CauseWay Point!
YUp my forbideen city..
but since yasmin, my HR Executive drives..
so im cool!
:)

Ouh yes!
We met Gloria..
our ex-Fianance Manager..
She is like the best FM anyone can have..
humble n nice..
:)

She's doin well outside now..
earning more more more that she used too..
So dinner was one her!
hehe
:)
Thanks Gloria!

Yasmin emo-ing & Gloria a bit high!
hehe

indulging in our sinful dessert!
MASSIVE ATTACK is the name of dat huge bowl of ice-cream..
NICE!
:D

You noe when adults are talking kids shld not interfer..
dats exactly wat i did..
n i snap pics of concentrated adults..

Gloria & Christine, the other HR Assistant..

how can i do w/o Christine mann..
:)

SUSI!!!
The one dat will be missed most & dear..
if i ever leave awwa..
hehe...
its too quiet w/o her in office!
She's the Personal Assistant of our CEO..
*brows*

As for me..
im a happy kid..
sitting amg all the grown ups!
:D

On Saturday Morning..
went back tp sch to collect my robe!
i noe like finnally..
hehe..
met dee & beloved Seha & Crazy Andy..
but only for a while..
i had to go after dat..

its time to head to ECP!
Its this special someone 21st bdae celebration!
yup yup..
this lady below!
:)

NONG SURAYA aka KAK NONG!
hehe
:)

it was nice!..
i mean..
not only does the bdae girl get gifts..
we got gifts too..
& we played games that just put a smile on everyone's face..

below are the 2 hardworking folk!
Kak Nong Mommy & Daddy :)
Her mom loves the way i talk u noe!
hehehehe
:D

Went there with idah dear..
:)

Ouh!
Farah was there too!
:)

How can i do w/o u 2!
:)

US US US!!!

im one HAPPY VOGUE DIVA!
:)

OUH!!!!
before i go off..
just wanna share with u all my craze..
i love this thing..
its like SAHARA's trademark!
im planning to collect more of it!
feel free to help me with my collection!
hahaha
:)

love,

sahara

* Sahara..come back safe, pls...

2008-05-10T21:36:00.004+08:00

StageArts Nite '08 was beautiful!
Though i missed like tons of the drama & dance performances..
meeting up with all my lovelies is MAGNIFICENT!!

I oh so missed them!
seriously..!
They all soo pretty!
i like!

(the Asst Headssss..)

(Me..Dee & Shai!)

(All of US!..well almost all)

Ouh yes!
ANDY! He's sooo HOT!!..
well yesternite only!
hehe..
=X

He has the look of a model la sey!!
Attitude like OMG!

He's like soo "Roar!"

Ouh!
i have to say..
im really amazed to have 2 boys in MCH!
MCH = Make up, Costume, Hair-do..

One is Danny!
He's a Myanmmist..
H.O.T!!
Tall & Hensem!!
OMG OMG OMG!
i like the pic!!! :)

then we have another guy..
Nadim..
a half America half pakistan!
Dee's Fav la!

so we each have 1!!
hehehehehe
:X

This is a pic of all the juniors..
Hehe..
I PURPOSELY STOOD THERE!
I PURPOSELY STOOD THERE!!!!
hehehehehe
:D

DEE & I..
Doin our usual stuff..

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I love MCH!
i really do!
now with the man ard..
i love MCH more!!
HAHAHAHAHA.
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i noe my lovely make up girls are like..
giving me that face me right now..
hehe..
ok la ok la..

i love u all so much more than anything else!
TRULY!!!
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Since tmr Mama & Dad gg out..
I ordered Pizza Hut for her just now for Mother's Day..
Mama loves pizza..

each time she craves for something its always pizza..
so when pizza came..
she was so happy!..
I LOVE to see Mama HAPPY!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MAMA!
SAHARA SAYANG MAK..
thanks for taking care of me & being there for all my nonsense..
u are one in the world!

:)

Aite..
everyone..
till then..
do take care..
have plenty of rest..
& stay cheerful forever!
:)
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sometimes i imagine the things u said were for me..
sometimes i imagine you will call me & talk to me..
sometimes i imagine you will wait for me when im on my way home..
sometimes i imagine we would walk together in the park..
sometimes i imagine you will call out my name..
sometimes i imagine you will come to my rescue each time im in trouble..
sometimes i imagine you would love me & be there for me..always..
but it never is.. cos its just my imagination..not urs...
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love,
sahara

*Sahara..Sometimes

2008-05-08T21:28:00.002+08:00

I LEFT MY HANDPHONE IN OFFICE!!

I FEEL OH SO NAKED!!

ARGH!!!

...oh well...

Work has been good so far..
There is always something to be completed..
Yasmin has succeded in keeping me 24/7 busy..
Like i said many a times..

Though i studied HR..
& being a HR Asst shld be something i look forward to...
Im not..
but im still learning ok!..
im trying to accomodate to the changes here n there..
beautiful pple at AWWA has been extra nice to me..
making frens with them has made it more enjoyable to be at work everyday..

its nice to befriend with pple of a variety of age range..
u learn alot u see.. i like :)
they give u advice..
& they are oh so funny!..
i just love to be with them!..

Being known as "The Singer" has made it double fun!
hehehe =X

Im really tired rite now..
its only like 3 weeks since work..
& im complaining..
geez!

oh well..
i guess i just need to rest & take care of myself..
smile & hopefully all the pain & sadness that might be kept deep within me will dissappear..
insyallah..

tilll then everyone..

take care n enjoy life!
eventhough u are at ur lowest point..
don forget.. u are not alone in this world..
many pple cares for u..
& im one of them!

God Bless

love,
sahara

I see that u are playing my game..
lets carry on.. though its disturbing me oh so bad..
but like i say.. its my choice..
but thank you for playing along with me..
the tot of it just fills my heart..

*Sahara..Naked~

2008-05-03T21:49:00.004+08:00

Don't you think..that..
watever u are doin now..
Will make me hate you..

hatred for you has never been there..
i cant find the courage to hate u..
u shld noe that..

u think its fun playing hide & seek with me?..
u hiding.. n u make me seek?..

YA! i noe damn it!.. its my choice..

the more we play hide n seek..
the more i hate myself..
i feel lousy..
stupid..
pethatic..

so i suggest..
u stop ur games..
n be urself..

lets play my game..
we play pretend..
that u don noe wat i feel..
n u dont noe wat i think..
my game is easy.. rite?..

the one affected is me..
so u don bother..
u don have to feel bad..
i've told u this from the very beginning..

now who's the stupid one?..
NO..
not u..
it has never been u..
u're not at fault..
its me!

Now i feel STUPID!
CANT YOU SEE?!

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watever..

Sometimes i have this mixed feelings
of letting go or holding on..
if i put it in percentage..
90% hold on 10% let go.. How?..

*Sahara..Hurt Again~

2008-05-02T21:16:00.002+08:00

Love has truly
been good to me
Not even one sad day
Or minute have I had since you've come my way

I hope you know
I'd gladly go
Anywhere you'd take me

It's so amazing to be loved
I'd follow you to the moon in the sky above
...ooh...ooh...I'd go

Got to tell you how you thrill me
I'm happy as I can be
You have come and it's changed my whole world

Bye-bye sadness, hello mellow
What a wonderful day

It's so amazing to be loved
I'd follow you to the moon in the sky above
Ooh...ooh...ooh...ooh...ooh...ooh
...ooh...ooh...I'd go

And it's so amazing, amazing
I could stay forever, forever
Here in love and no, leave you never'
Cause we've got amazing love

Truly it's so amazing, amazing
Love brought us together, together
I will leave you never and never
Cos we've got amazing love

Ooh, so amazing and I've been waiting
For a love like you

It's so amazing to be loved
I'd follow you to the moon in the sky above
Oh, and it's so, it's so

It's so amazing to be loved
I'd follow you to the moon in the sky above

And you know, it's so
It's so amazing to be loved
I'd follow you to the moon in the sky above
Hey...hey...hey...yeah...it's so

It's so amazing to be loved
I'd follow you to the moon in the sky above
Hey...hey...yeah...hey...yeah...yeah...hey...it's so

It's so amazing to be loved
I'd follow you to the moon in the sky above

Can i sing this for you?
&
Will you sing this with me?

Love,
sahara

*Sahara..Your so amazing~

2008-04-30T23:12:00.002+08:00

On my way back home..
I saw someone who looks like you..
Walk like you..
Smile like you..
Just like you..

I smiled to myself..
at the same time..
i wonder..

How are you?
Have you been well?
Have you been eating well?
How's life there?
Are you coping well?
Are you adapting well to the changes there?
Did you make new friends there?
Do miss Singapore?
Do you miss the pple here?
Do you miss....me?

i wonder sometimes..

love,
sahara

*Sahara..Once forgotten ME..

2008-04-27T22:10:00.004+08:00

I noe life was unfair when i din get the chance to watch "We will rock you"
But now God is giving me a second chance!
Another interesting play in the theater!..

Its called "Shakespeare on Love"

DATE:29 Apr - 3 May 2008
Tue, Wed & Fri - 8:00PM
Thu & Sat - 3:00PM & 8:00PM

DURATION: Approx 2 Hrs

IntervalApprox: 15 Mins

VENUE: DBS Arts Centre, Home of SRT

TICKET PRICE:(Exclude Booking Fee)Standard - S$35

Shakespeare on Love

Wessex Theatre is a new professional theatre company based in Singapore. The first sell out performance of Shakespeare on Love at Raffles Hotel’s Jubilee Hall in 2000, was reviewed by the Flying Inkpot as “an ingenious and exciting hybrid of plays from one of the greatest love poets, Shakespeare. The play deftly explores love and its effects in all their infinite possibilities.”
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The 2008 production includes excerpts from A Midsummer Night’s Dream, The Tempest, Much Ado About Nothing, Measure for Measure, Othello and Antony and Cleopatra. The emphasis throughout is on making the pieces fresh, accessible and relevant. Music combines with poetry to add to the emotional impact of the dramatic action.
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An experienced and talented cast will make this an unforgettable and thoroughly entertaining evening of Shakespeare.

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Its only up for 5 days!
Any kind soul wanna go with me?
Most prolly the Saturday Show on the 3rd May!
Yes on the last day!!
3pm show!!
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ANYONE?????????????????

CALL ME PLS!!!
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But it would be so much nicer if it was him who calls me..
=X
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love,
sahara

*Sahara.. Shakespeare on Love

2008-04-19T19:41:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was really a beautiful day..
My morning..afternoon & evening..
i enjoyed the whole day..

Morning kicked off pretty bad with jam on the way to AWWA..
but when i reached there..
Both Teacher Eve & Teacher Ismail was awaiting for my arrival..
waited for the other caregivers to come before i start off my gig..
hehe..

played all the songs i knew on my guitar..
they enjoyed it la sey!
most importantly the kids loved it..
they were all smiling happily..

i was given food n snack like madness..
if i carry on as AWWA volunteer..
all my effort of losing 0.5 gram goes to waste!..
hehe
0.5 gram??

After dat..
in the afternoon,
i joined in Teacher Nor's class..
as usual..

much love!
:)

lOOK at Ellen..
Major Cuteness..
like CHIna Doll rite!
:)

the two lovers at the back..
Yi Xiang & Rachel..
:D

talking abt that..
on thursday,
we went to the Toy Library..
its a place for fun & imagination..
so Alvin became a fire man..
& Gabi became a timber girl cum a chef cum a princess..
i like!!
:)

Alvin the Fireman..

Gabi the Timber girl..

Gabi the chef..

& GABI the PRINCESS!!
CUTE!
:)

before we sang the National Athem..
while most of the classes waited for the flag lowering to begin,
Teacher Ming Hui requested i sang nursery rhyme for a student of hers..
when i started strumming my guitar..
everyone..
hell rite..
everyone in the canteen just stop n turn their head n listened..
i played twinkle2 little star n Baa2 Black sheep..
everyone clapped!..
im really honoured..

now im called Sahara the Star..
COOL RITE!!
I LIKE!
:)

After much fun in AWWA..
i meet up with my lovely..crazy & wacky girls..
Sadly, lovely Aqilah cant make it..
but its ok..
there will be plenty more in the future!

It was really nice catching up..
if only we could stay there longer..
we can dig more secrets!
hehe..
LOVE U ALL!
:)

jUSt to let u all noe..
starting from Monday..
i'll official be part of AWWA as the HR Assitstant..
kinda dissapointed as i hope to be a teacher there..
but i take it as my stepping stone..
aniwae..
i studied HR so..
haha..

oh well..

i shall start the monday with a positive attitude!..
the pple there are nice & i have adapted there.
so wats the problem rite!?
hahax..

JIA YOU!
its the beginning of another phase of Sahara's life..
:)

ouh!..
He wants to duet with me for this year AWWA Dinner & Dance..
i don even know if im gonna stay dat long..
DARN!

OH WELL

till then everyone..
& have plenty of rest..

love,
sahara

*Sahara.. =X

2008-04-17T22:07:00.003+08:00

Why is my heart aching these days..
I noe im always emotional..
Nobody noes..
& i don tell pple straight off..

when they see me..
i seems like the happiest women in this world..
but deep down inside..
something is missing..
something is killing me silently..

i hate it so much..
but i just don noe how to mend it..
i don noe how to let it go..
sometimes just the tot of it makes me cry..
i feel sad..
i don even noe wat im sad of..

I've been listening to all the sad songs lately...
each time they fills the air..
i feel the pain in my chest..
my ears refuse to listen to other types of songs..
its really painful..

if u ask me wats wrong..
i cant tell u..
cos im not too sure myself..

it adds on the pain..
with u staring at me..
listening to all my words..
giving me that look that u need me too..
the laughter each time we are together..

i cant explain my feelings..
i cant understand y i feel this way..
i cant tell myself to stop feeling this way..

each time u smile..
im filled with content..
each time i heard ur sad..
i felt hurt..
cos u're not sharing it with me..
i don noe y but i felt u needed me to be there for u..

Next time..
pls..
don smile at me that way..
don look at me that way..
don touch me that way..

its killing me inside..
n i hate it to see myself in tears..

but at the same time..
don stop smiling at me that way..
don stop looking at me that way..
don stop touching me that way..
i felt blessed..

even if ur soul is someplace else..
i don wan it to end..
i will just keep it to myself..
n let fate bring me to the light of true love..

love,
sahara

*Sahara.. =(

2008-04-16T22:32:00.005+08:00

Hello Angels & Devils!
hahax..

How's life?
Mine's alrite..
been busy lately..
busy with work..
busy with home affairs..
busy with matter of hearts..
hahax..

oh well..
just smile it all off
:)

So wat has been happening recently?
beside work..
i manage to grab sometime off on sat..
to meet my lovelies
:)

Went back to sch to meet them..
for make-up..
like after oh so long..
en we went to our normal hang out spot!
i like!
:)

So CANTIK (Pretty) rite all of them!
how can i do w/o them
:)

Some snap shot ought to be shared..
by the Double D..

Neni Dayana!

NorDiana!

FUNNY RITE!
hehe
=X

Before gg off to Fullerton One Starbucks..
Nen & i did our thing..
CAM-WHORE!!
:)

More pics of us
:)

LOVE~~~

oUH!..
Monday..
14 April was Daddy Birthday..
52 birthday..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAK!
:)

My Happy Ol' Man

OH OH!!!

TODAY!!

I MEET MUMMY TOH!!

I MISS HER LA!!

We went NTUC together

& walk home together..

like after sooooooo LONG!

more of it ok Chin leng dear

let me leave u with some snapshot..

of dear Teacher Nur in action..

as well as the kids..

that never fails to put smile on my lips

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EILEEN!

MY HUNNIE BUNNIE

She keeps running away..

so pardon me for the blurness of the pic

Till then everyone..

take care

Ouh!..

i cant wait for Friday..

Im gonna meet the girls im missing like MAD!!

make a guess..

hehe

Love,

Sahara

*Sahara.. Mixed Feelings~

2008-04-10T21:51:00.003+08:00

Today was Beautiful Teacher Nur's B'dae..
IT WAS A BLAST!!!...
I SO ENJOYED MYSELF LA!!

Im very sure the kids in her class was enjoying as well..
She looked so pretty..
with a bit of make up.. lip stick..
n dat personalized hair thing dad drew for her..
a gift from me..
she loved it!..
:)

I brought my guitar down & sang for her..
We sang many songs together..
haha

Nursery Rhymes was the kids favourite!..
Nice..
I'm addicted to some of the songs..
like..
"Good Afternoon".. "Mr Sunshine"
hahax..
Mama thinks im MAD singing the song infront of the TV.. & even in the TOILET!
hahax..

Sang in Fiona's class
It was nice..
the kids get to strum my guitar..
THEY LOVE IT!
:)

i should bring it more often
:)

After dat..
we PARTY!..
in Teacher Nur's class..
Harjass class joined in too..
during the 2nd class
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sang "Umbrella by Rihanna"..
plenty of times..
cos its Teacher Nur's Fav!..
hahax
:)

I truly enjoyed my time..
A birthday treat with beloved Teacher Nur & the kids..
B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L!
:)

Afte dat..
on ma way back home..
i stopped by this shop..
en this lady i dun noe asked me..
"Are u a singer?"
u noe me with the guitar and my personalized headscaf...
got my name on it!
haha..

en i replied..
"Well i sing sometimes for the kids at special school"
en she was like..
"oh i tot u sing in a club.. u got that look u see"
en we nod and parted..
geez!
a club singer???
ME???
hahax..
GEEEEEEeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzz..

Oh well..
i had fun today...
Hope u guys had fun too!..

till en everyone!
take care!

ouh ya!!!..
the "We will rock u" play..
its at esplanade..
tix prices are from $40- $170!..
LIKE OMG CAN!!!
@_@

love,
sahara

*Sahara..When YOU say nothing at all~

2008-04-08T22:16:00.002+08:00

I guess i have this feel that AWWA gonna extend my contract..
hmmm..

they raised the issue but haven confirm..
oh well..
we see how go with the flow yo!..

he hasn't been talking to me..
n its realli sad..
to see how u just smile n walk past each other..
its realli..
so near yet so far..
oh well..
im sure allah has his reasons
:]

i took a copy of this Arts Beats Magazine..
where they show case a lot a lot of drama..
in theater..
i so like it..

u noe every month they release a new issue..
i always take n read it..
it makes me feel sad that i cant go n watch them..
i want to watch a play so much..
but its either too expensive..
it clashes with ma other schedule..
or i just have no one to go with..
pple prefer cinema then theater..

im the opposite..
i love theater..
i think i need to find a boyfriend who loves the theater too..
en at least we share the same passion..
have a common interest..
n have something we can both enjoy..

Anyone?..

Now in theater is..
THE PILLOWMAN..
&
WE WILL ROCK YOU..

ANYONE?

oh well..

till en..
take care..

Broken hearts happen all the time..
I never take notice of things like dat
but the trouble is..
this time its mine
see the trouble is...
the heart is mine..

Love,
sahara

*Sahara..Theater anyone?

2008-04-07T21:33:00.003+08:00

Yes..
i told nen im not gg yoga on my tag board..
but i went!

hehe..

there's a reason as to why i went..
Since my last day in awwa is next wednesday..
i might not have another chance to enjoy all this free/trial stuff
i tried aerobics so no harm trying yoga..

so wat happen during yoga..

MAJOR NERVES ATTACK!..
a lot a lot of stretching..
like to ur left..
to ur right..
breathe in n out..
feeling ur lungs expand..
ur tummy expand..
ur spine stretch..

WAH!..
one of the moves..
made me SWEAT!..
like its oh so hard!..
really..

now my mentality of yoga changed..
Yoga is not easy but it totally helps!..

u noe after a couple of stretches n proper breathing..
i felt light n easy..
wow!..

there was this favourite move of mine..
its called the CAT!...

its like prowling cat..
so we were on our knees and palms flat on the ground..
breathe in n out with a certain movement hips up n down..

en most of us cant do it..
so the instructor did the opposite cat action..
lying flat on her back..
she said..
"come on girls.. this shld be a norm.. u gerls does this often.."
then she giggled..
i was lost until i saw her demo..
she moves her hips up n down..
n many other ladies ard giggled..

as she was demonstrating infront of me..
my facial expression can be seen by all..
everyone laughed when i said a little too loud..
"but im not married!"
opps
=X

Girija the Volunteer Exec..
did it oh so well..
then one of the lady there shouted..
"Your husband is lucky!"
Funny!!!..

haha

but in the end i did i correctly..
aint easy yo!..

oh well..
so i had a good time at yoga today..
i like..
but the religious part..
a bit here n there..
i don favour..
still..
its all ur choice wat to listen to
:)

till en everyone..
take care..

breathe in n out..
it helps!

love,
sahara

*sAHara..Meditating..

2008-04-06T23:50:00.003+08:00

I'm Tired..

& there's Yoga tmr..

after work..

Geez..

calm down child..

calm down..

Love,

sahara

*Sahara..Let me hold you tight~

2008-04-05T23:20:00.002+08:00

Here goes..
while chatting with Marjuk Bala..
sang this song..
for My Cherie Amour!

I wonder who is he?

Enjoy!..

Love,
Sahara

*Sahara..My Cherie Amour

2008-04-04T23:17:00.002+08:00

I guess i have to stop it here..
im having this feeling he knows something..

if its meant to be it will be..

the feeling of being given a cold shoulder..
hurts..
your smiles..
seems a little different today..
you aint talk like u used too..

is it for real..
are u not feeling well or something?
or am i just too sensitive today..

how?..
this is oh so bad..
im starting to miss u..
even when u're oh so near..

ya allah..
why?

love,
sahara

*Sahara..Press the Stop Button~

2008-03-28T14:17:00.006+08:00

Hello everyoneeee

:D

My Week was BAM..
Everyday has been a roller coaster!..
up n down..
here n there..
in n out..
tiring week..

but today..
AWWA has an event at Fort Canning..
so its my break..
resting at home..
:)

Monday..
i met with ma 2 sayang!..
Neni Dayana & Diana..
i like!
we went eat ayam penyet..
Nice..
well i aint actually eat ayam penyek..
i eat daging (beef) penyek..
NICE.COM!!

i like!

next time i go there..
i wanna try the ikan(fish) bawal!
yum yum

Tuesday..
i was running abt in awwa..
be it in the office (headquaters)
as well as during my lunch..
where i help out in school..
went to the multi-sensory room twice..

i just love multi-sensory room..
like sexy like dat..
its dark..
with lots of disco lights and a water bed..
i just love it..
slow calm songs during his class..
& hip belly dancing songs during teacher nur's class..
P.A.R.T.Y..

all my stress in office gone!
hehe
:)

Wednesday.
Lovely Idah & Kak Nong..
drop by AWWA to volunteer..
hehe..
i suupose they had a memorable day..
:)
they went into hydro (swimming pool)
hehe

After dat,
went to Northpoint for dinner..
en we sat, laid back and just talk n talk n talk..
sentence of the day by idah
"kat sini ade buaye tak?"
(here have crocordile or not?"

inside joke la!
hehe

Yesterday!..
i love love love!!!
as usual..
every thursday..
morning i go office..
rushy rushy..
after dat at 1pm..
all the way till 6pm
i help in schoool
I LOVE LOVE LOVE..

went to the toy library..
its just lovely to be in teacher nur's class..
we had a great laugh la!
Aiman is soooo cute..
he always say "nak balik" (wan go home)
cute la!

then boon hong.. the china emperor!..
hilarious!
we laugh so much...
there was tears in teacher nur's eyes..
elanor, a speech therapist helped out too!..
n ruby, baby rachel's maid was there too!..

we had a good time together!
:)

that's all everyone..
do take care n have a good weekend!

GOood Day!

love,
sahara

*Sahara..The sound...

2008-03-20T21:31:00.004+08:00

it was MADNESS THIS MORNING!
now my heart still skipped a beat when i think abt it!..

On ma way to work..
854..yea the bus..854
Something happened..

"My" Bus nearly met with an ACCIDENT!
OMG OMG OMG..
all of us in the bus..
FLUNG OFF OUR SEAT TO THE FRONT!!!
MAJOR MADNESS!!!..

No injuries..
thank god..
but this makcik...
was in shock..
she flung off her seat to the floor..
and could not stand up ..
after an aunty talked to her n calmed her down..
n everything was back alrite..
the bus carried on the journey..
we were held for abt 15 mins..

Why the driver halt suddenly?..
Cos of this Taxi..
a lady hailed the cab..
n he BAM!..
STOP SUDDENLY INFRONT OF THE BUS..
so the bus had to go into a sudden halt..

i tell u..
its really scary!..
I TWISTED MY CALF!..
but its alrite now..
thank god..

anywae u noe wat i was thinking before the incident happen..
i was thinking of a book i read abt how the lead's lover died of an accident!..
FREAKY!
@_@

on a lighter note..
i enjoy my volunteering time at AWWA just now..
i was in Teacher Nur's class..
my fav teacher!..
I meet new adorable kids..
There was Aiman! CUTE TO THE MAX!..
Rachel..Boon Hong.. Haziq..Yi Sheng..Ellen..(in 1st half of the class)
Daniel..Alvin..Nicole & Gabrielle..(in 2nd half of the class)
Gabrielle is another CUTE .COM!

I was even given a chance to lead the class in "Work together"
We drew a face together..
face..eyes..ears..nose and mouth!
Coolness..
I wanted to add a tongue..
but decided not too..
else i'll confuse the innocents
hehehehehe

I also drop by that HOT teacher class!..
Its like..
whenever im in his class i feel much better..
all sorrows gone..
n when im involve n playing wit the kids..
all sadness just dissolves away..
u guys shld try it out too..
u guys might enjoy it...
i did..
in fact..
its therapy for me!
:D

Aite everyone..
thats all for now
till then...
take care..
tmr's a holiday!
rest well

love,
sahara

*Sahara..MADNESS!

2008-03-20T00:03:00.004+08:00

Just thinking abt wat u wrote kills..
Sometimes i wish i could understand wat it means..
Sometimes i wish i noe who ur msges are for..
Sometimes i dream they were for me..

Whatever happens..
Whether u are near or far..
Whether u are gg or not..
Whether u ever think abt me..
I'll always stay in love with you..

Thor
I'll always stay in love with you
So far away
Just thought I’d let you know
How I feel today
Ooohhh
The times we shared
Can’t be compared to anything
Uuhh-oohh

[chorus]
You had to go
You did what you had to do
And I understand
But I’ll always stay in love with you
Hoo-ooh

I long for you
There’s nothing I can do
Ooh baby
Who knows why it had to hurt this way
I can’t help but cry
[repeat chorus]

Oh won’t you please come back to me
And say that you love me too
And I swear to you
That I will always stay this way
Whatever comes my way
You know I’ll always stay in love with you

I hate u!
I hate u for making me feel this way..
I hate u for thinking only of urself..
I hate u for not telling it straight to me..
I hate u for ignoring me!
But i hate myself more
No matter how much i tell myself i hate u..
It still hurts even at the thought of u..
and i still have u in my heart..

Love,
Sahara

*Sahara..You~

2008-03-13T23:49:00.003+08:00

Inna Lillah Wainailaihi Rajiun...

(From Allah we came, To him we return)

Received a call this morning at ard 5am..
Ma aunt called..
conveying a msg..
that....
Grandpa passed away..

i was shocked!..
realli am..
he left even before most of us could see him..
We tot he was recovering..
we realli do..
Doc said he had onli 3 mths..
but it has been a year since..

but this morning..
13 March 2008..
was his last breathe..
he passed away..
due to Cancer..
:(

Although he was my step-grandfather..
he was the only grandfather
i knew from my mom side..
since birth..
i never gotten a chance to meet my real grandpa

The person im worried most now is ma grandma..
Her first husband died of cancer too.. way in the 60s
TOday..
She witness another death..
of her second husband..
due to cancer too..
my heart goes to her..

She din shed a tear when i was there with her..
she was calmed n peaceful..
her lips never missed saying prayers for her beloved..
i was so touched..
i was the one in tears..

She was a strong lady before & still is..
She takes things in her stride calmly..
& she sent him off..
without wanting to worry him abt her..

i wanted to just sit there with her..
Hug her and just be there for her..
But circumstances din allow me too..
She was patient n Strong..
I learn that from her..
i really do..

I love my grandma very much..
& i pray to god..
that he will cherish her with a healthy n long life..
for i cant bear to see her go as well..

Ya Allah..
Sesungguhnye.. engkau maha pengasih..
lagi maha penyayang..
Lindungila nenek ku..
panjangkan lah usia nye..
tabahkan lah hatinye menghadapi cobaanmu.. ya allah..

Ampuni segala dosa atuk ku yg telah
selamat pulang ke pangkuan mu..
Rahmatila rohnye ya allah....

Amin Amin Ya Rab'bal Alamin

Love,
sahara

*sAHara..My last Goodbye~

2008-03-10T15:48:00.003+08:00

Had a convo with one of my beautiful friend..
She said i can be a psychologist..
haha!..

im so excited jut at the tot of it..
:)

this is a note for her;

dear..
i noe it seems surreal..
but if dats ur destiny, ur fate..
im sure it's meant to be..
u're lucky to have someone who loves u..

talk to him..
ask him to make himself clear..
this could be something u might be missing all this while..
if u think the past just aint click with now..
don worry
its all memories..
like i say..
it's something dat both of u share..

don give him up dear..
he's a fine man..
i can see dat..

go ahead..
don worry wat tmr might brings..
for today..
is a start of something..
something beautiful in ur lifetime..

lay ur cards dear..
for then will u noe the truth..
if it hurts..
im here..
if it true..
im happy for u

:)

a quote from her
"it takes strength to move on, but it takes courage to tell yourself that you'll be okay."
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

wat would it be to be loved?
wat would it be to have someone u can turn to at ur darkest moments..
wat would it be to have someone u could trust..
wat would it be to have someone u can be true to..
wat would it be to have someone to say "All i want is you"..
wat would it be to have someone to say "You're meant for me"..

it would be.. LOVE..

when will it be me?
when will i feel loved?
when will i held my head high up standing beside u?
when will i feel belong?
when will i get to be called his?
when will i ever...find U?

love,
sahara

*Sahara..2 years ago~

2008-03-08T15:30:00.007+08:00

Yes i noe im a bit slow..
but yes!

I have graduated from NYP
alhamdullilah..

no more projs..
no more exams..
now into the real world..
mann..

im still sitting at home doing nothing..
super slacking..
watching my drama as usual..

many dates to fulfill..
but i either have too much to handle..
or im pure lazy to go out..
mama prefers i sit at home anyway..
untill i get a job..
she wants me to stay at home..
learn to be a housewife..
geez
@_@

the past few days..
beautiful things happen in my life..
i truly love each and everone of them..
hehe..
how i wish it never end
:)

Tuesday..
was the last day of exams!
yup..
went out wit ma lovelies
Nasreen..Marcel..Aqilah & Syam..
Saiful, Syam's man joined us for lunch too
:)

it was nice..
we laughed at marcel as usual..
im so gonna miss doin dat..
hehe

*pics will be up once syam send it over

Wednesday..
was Class BBQ!
at THe Chevrons-JuRong..
I LIKE!!!

i din get a chance to stay over..
sad sad..
mama aint like the idea of a chalet
geez..
oh well.. she meant well
:)

but yes!
i enjoyed myself..
laugh like a mad women..
teased marcel as usual..
hehe

im so gonna miss each and everyone of them..
eventhough some are a pain in the ass..
*u shld noe who
:X
and some who are realli lovely and sweet..
im realli gonna miss them..
truly..

more get together pple..
:)

*pics will be up once syam send it over

Thursday..
i sat at home with mama..
my feet ache..
so i stayed at home n catch up with ma drama..
at the same time..
i read my "Psychological with men" book..
i din get to finish it..
had to return to the lib..
the due was nearing..
geez

im into psychology actualli
i love to understand and study people..
i wonder wat they think..
and y they act that way..
hmmm
mystery of god's gift
:)

Friday..
it was SBM CLub handover day..
ya..i noe..
like finnally..
hehe..

it went all..
i love the photo taking sessions..
hehe..
Congrats to the new committee!..
good luck and all the best ya!
don forget LTC..
look out for a spot for me..
i'll be waiting..
hehe

but before that..
i went to catch "leap years" at AMK Hub..with.........
SHILA & LIZAH!!

It was last minute..
i asked many pple but none could make it..
since i cant get my normal kaki (legs)
i brought along my tangan (hand)..
"quoted from shila"

the movie was oh so sad..
emo emo..
i like..
i cried like nobody business..
my eyes swollen..
lucky shila cried too..
else paiseh..
cry alone..

lizah mama.. hard core la babe..
strong lady..
but who noes maybe she's crying inside..
:)

Photo taking after the movie was love..
i like to take pic..
i guess cos..
cameras loves me..
hehehe
:D

i have to say..
i love my week..
realli!

hehe..
am i easy to please or wat?!

:D

till then everyone..
take care

love,
sahara

*Sahara~Bang Bang..

2008-03-01T23:02:00.003+08:00

hello all..
well..
i noe i noe..
y am i here typing rite..
its like in the midst of exams!
hehehe..

well..
i have something i wanna share abt..
so i guess this itchy hands aint stopping..

well...
wat am i gonna talk abt..
hmmm

its abt a fren of mine..
a fren who sure leaves an impact in ma life..
but im feeling a little down..
cos i think he's ignoring me..
it's all bcos of me..

mann..
how i wish he reads this..
n tell me wat wrong i have done..

well i kinda know wat wrong i have done..
but he ignoring me cos of this..
i feel oh so bad..

maybe bcos he trusted me..
and i killed dat trust..
mann..
im sorri..

well..
this thing actualli happen super duper long ago..
but it just came back to me..
& im feeling guilty abt it..

so listen me out!..
but pple..
i aint need any advice or comment on this..
if he reads it..great..
if he don..
its ok..
lets just read on n move on
can we..
thanks
:)

ok u see..
he was my fren way back in Secondary school..
we used to be partners in sch..
sitting along side each other n crack jokes on our teachers..
when i was bullied and hurt by this particular teacher..
he will always be there..
telling me
"its ok ignore her"
im glad to have a fren like him..
realli..

when we went to our separate ways..
we nvr see each other again..
we both went to diff poly u see..
so it just stopped there..

well..
its been 3 long years..
since i see him..
3 loooong years.....

so when my bad moments happen..
when dat particular someone rejected me..
way back abt 2 years ago..
i din noe who to talk to..
he came into ma mind..
BUT!..
darn me..
i deleted his number away..

well..
not only his.. a couple other pple as well..
so..
i ask from gf of mine for his number..
i was so glad dat she has his number..
so i msged him..
we talked..
i told him abt dat guy..

he was there for me..
he listened to me as a good fren..
telling me to get my priorities right..
be brave and move on..
he listen to me without complaining me intruding in his life..
i thank him for that..

im sure most of u are wondering..
so wat is wrong..
wat went wrong..
u see..
its kinda complicated..
but to cut it short..
he discover that i deleted his number away..
n i asked another someone for his number..
so i guess he was hurt abt it..

i think he feels that..
i was not sincere..
only using him when im in need..

when i msg him the past few months..
he keep on saying..
"sori i lost all my contacts..can i noe who u are?"
its not once or twice..
its like each time i msg him..
its the same statement..

and when i told him its me..sahara
he seems to loose interest to talk..
its always a one word ans..

mann..
im sad cos of this..
he was that fren..
that fren i could rely on..
i feel so bad..
all this happens becos of me..
cos i deleted his number first..
thinking dat i don need him anymore..

due to my selfishness..
i lost a fren..
a good fren i noe i can rely on..
im sad..
how?..

oh well..
if this is fated..
wat can i do..
i shalll just live in regret that i lost him..

dear readers..
thank you for reading..
i noe some may want to comment on this..
but i rather u not..
thanks..
but i had rather leave it as it is..

if u noe this person..
don go n tell him..
if its fated for him to read..
then it shall be known..
but if its not..
it will be just another entry of mine..

i shall leave his name here..
in hope that..
if he noe its him..
hopefully he will forgive me if i've hurt him..
to fellow readers who noe him..
lets leave it as it is..

thanks

till then everyone..
take care..

love,
sahara

*Sahara..Muhammad Yusoff~

2008-02-21T16:50:00.003+08:00

Wednesday was the last tutorial we had with Ms Prema..
A Beautiful, Positive & Lovely Lecturer..
We all love her don we..

so..
as usual..
my clique n Osman's clique..
stayed a little longer..
and took photo's wit her!
I LIKE!
:)

iM SO GONNA MISS HER!
:)

Then TODAY!!
was another BEAUTIFUL DAY!
it was photo taking day!
i shall post up all the pics we took once i receive them!
hehe..

for now..
here's something that the usual girls do when we get bored..
haha..
the main focus is the last person!
n im sure many will noe who she is..
hehehe..

SO!
ARE U READY!!!???

First up..
the top lady with THE BIGGEST EYE BALLS!

NASREEN PARVEEN

NEXT UP!
THE CUTEST LADY!
ok self-praise here
but don't u all agree

NUR SAHARA BTE KAMSANI!

in THIRD PLACE..
IS THE MIS-CHIEVIOUS!

NURSYAMILAH!

due to the mix blood she has..
SHE FALLS ON THE FORTH PLACING

SITI AQILAH!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST!
THE MOST ANTICIPATED..
MOST RARE MOMENTS OF A LADY..
ALWAYS WITH SUCH SMALL EYEBALLS!
TODAY HAS SHOWN MUCH "GROWTH"..
(ouh!.. do check out how she look..CLASSIC)
im still not over laughin' at it..
hehe..
ok..mean me..
:X

SHE'S NON OTHER THEN!

MARCELLIAN ARLANY!!!!

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEH

FUNNY.COM!!!

Ouh!
Many thanks to Neni Dayana for the cute flower!
I LOVE LOVE LOVE..

its bright and cheerful..
just like u!

with that..
i shall say..
Sahara is a HAPPY GIRL!

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.
.
.
till en everyone
take care

love,
sahara

*Sahara..Good or Bad~

2008-02-17T22:42:00.014+08:00

Hello everyone!..
how's life?..
Hopefully things gg well for u..
if u need a shoulder..
u have mine..
:)

Well..
things gg well for me..
exams are just ard the corner..
i have 2 more presentations to go..
after dat i can focus on exams!..
then its relax for a bit..
before job hunting..

if any of u noe of any good bargains for job tell me yo!..
i wanna be..
1) Radio personnel
2) Motivation Speaker/Trainer
3) Event Coordinator
4) Counsellor
5) Speacial Kids Teacher*** :)
6) HR Personnel!.. HR Development sector that is

ok below,
are two huge events that has pleasant memories..
i noe..
its loonggggg due..
but i only have time now..
so yeah!..

here goes...
BM0523 Class BBQ
&
Aqilah cum Audrey Surprise Birthday Treat
:)

Birthday Treat!

Meet up as early as 10 am..
Go NTUC & Shop&Save..
grab all the stuff needed..
& BAM!..
AT SYAM'S place..
hehe..

After dat..
the cooking start!..
Presentin to u the 2 chefs!
:)

Nenek & I!!

Definitely we cant go abt..
W/o the help of NAS & SYAM!!
:)

Syam was the photographer of the day..
so she's not in the pic most of the time..
nevertheless..
she is a marvelous DISH WASHER!!..
wat can we do w/o her!..
hehe

I OH SO LOVE THIS PIC!!..
IM THE CHICKEN SLAUGHTERRRRR!!!!
hahahahahahahaa
~Evil~

The dishes that we cooked!
Syam Cooked the RIce yo!
hehehehehe
:)

On the menu:
1) Lauk Lemah Tahu Tempeh
2) Stir Fried Veggie (Chinese Version)
3) Fried Dry Meat
4) Chicken in sauce
5) Mini Begedil
6) Rice
7) Mango Ice Water

We also prepared..
Doughnuts for our 2 lovelies!

So how do we look after cooking..
like THAT!

TIRED BABE!
:)

After which..
the 2 lovely Birthday girls arrived!
Happy 21 dearies!!..
haha..
i'll be joining u all soon!
:)
in abt 10 mths!
hahahahahaha

Opps..
dats NASREEN acting Cute..

Getting back to the story!..
After eating..
as usual..
our chat session!
the photo's are random..
hehe

As usual..
Nenek face..
tak maintain!
Syam trying to act glam there!..

Nenek begging Aqilah to stop photo taking!
hahahah

So Aqilah pass me the camera
& Voila!
MY FAV!!
:)

Aqilah observing how..
Nas adjusting her EyeBalls..
tsk tsk tsk..

Audrey tried to follow!
Syam felt like puking
geez
@_@

I cannot take it!..
super tired..
my eyes are shutting..
Aqilah as usually
RADIANT!

tHEN we move on to the floor..
NO!..
not to dance..
but to sit..
and more talking!..
haha!
we played truth or TRUTH!

hahaha

The Birthday Girls!
With that weird thing on their head..
we force them to put it on!
hehehe

Nasreen with one of her rare poses!

Im enjoying as usual..
Syam?..
She suffocating there..
poor child..
tsk tsk tsk..

After dat..
we KARAOKE..
for a while..
hehe..

AUDREY SINGING LA SEY!!!
AQILAH HAPPY ONLY ARH!
hehehe
:)

I have to say..

that day was love!

2nd Feb 2008

=)

OK!!

Next!!!!

BM0523 Class BBQ!

My Loveliest!

3 years with them..

Memorable!

Drey & Sam!

What is a class w/o this girls!

Us with Ms Diana Tan..

She is oh so nice..

you shld hear how she laugh..

classic!

At the Hot sizzling PIT!

Us with Osman!

ok..

in this pic..

focus on AQILAH!!

hehehehehe

On top of the ROCK?!

iM as usual cute there

hehe

Nas..

arhhhh..

ok la

hehehe..

My 2 Oh so Fav BOYS!

Lex Dear & Osman Dear

Im official..

the Bodyguard..

of the Star..

Ms Tan!

She runnin' away from paparazi there..

haha..

BUT!

I think im too cute for a bodyguard!

hehehe

bleah

2 years of friendship..

i shall cherish!

On our way back home..

Drey & I

on top of??!!

seems like UFO to me...

geez

@_@

US!

I LIKE!!

So..

i shall say..

i enjoy that nite!

truly..

so looking forward to our next BBQ afte exams!

till then everyone!

love,
sahara

*Sahara..~Another use to be..

2008-02-16T15:24:00.004+08:00

Wonder what ur name might means..

hahaha!

well i found out mine..
so here goes!

What Nur Sahara Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

till en everyone!

take care

love,

sahara

*Sahara-Still~

2008-02-12T22:18:00.000+08:00

before i kick start today's entry..

i just wanna wish..

AUDREY NG!

A HAPPY HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!

love u always & god bless

i cant believe im saying this..

but yes!!..

PROJECTS ARE STILL THE MAJOR THINGS IN MY LIFE!!

hahahahaha..

were u expecting something else..

oh mann..

geez..

ouh yea..

i saw this on an email Marcel send..

its abt ur horoscope..

wat can i say..

i love being a SAGITTARIUS!

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One

Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome).

Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

actualli..

the discription is so me la!

dont u think so..

maybe i disagree here n there..

but..

oh well!

I LIKE

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE

till then everyone

love,

sahara

*Sahara..the Happy-go-lucky one

2008-02-09T20:14:00.000+08:00

i don noe why!..

im oh so in LOVE with Mr Todd..

last nite.. i dreamt of him..
tonite i might dream of him..
tmr nite i've predicted.. i will dream of him..

mann!..
he is like oh so HOT!..

due to this love sick of mine..
for the sake of memories..
i sang a song of me & Mr Todd..

haha..
if u all don like it..
nvm..
im sure Mr Todd will love it..

lalala

p/s: aqilah don jealous!
:P

Love,
Sahara

*Sahara-Me & Mr Todd

2008-02-08T19:04:00.000+08:00

OKOK!!!..

before dee delete away this blog..
& before Aqilah beat me up for not updating..
i shall update..

hahaha..

nothing much happening..
im just being PURE lazy..
to update..
haha..

projs are still the MAIN highlights in ma life..

OUH!!..
I'M A DESIGNER..
interior designer dat is..
haha..
i designed our cafe..
for entrep!..
EL-Shareek..
haha..

it feels good..
but it toook up a huge hell of my time!

hehe!!..

YES YES YES!!!..
U ALL!!
GO AND WATCH..

SWEENEY TODD: THE DEMON BARBER OF FLEET STREET!!!

i tell u..
its B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L...
i OH SO LOVE IT!

serious..
i don mind watching it again..
like wow wow wow!

i love the starting..
the story line..
the songs!..
and most importantly..
THE ENDING!!..
its like O.M.G...

ITS BRUTAL!..
BLOOD BLOOD BLOOOD..
buts its NICE

Jhonny Depp is OH SO HOT!..
wat is the world without him!
geez..

i love him la sey!!!

You guys shld go & watch
Seriously!!

the other cast..
like they just fit in beautifully..
i love the OVERALL la..
NICE NICE NICE

i love their tag line too!
NEVER FORGET..NEVER FORGIVE!

WOW!

i would give it..
10/10..
seriously...
ok maybe im a little bias towards..
musical..
but who cares!
i still like it..

HAHAHAHAHA

OK..
dee..
will this entry stop u from deleting my blog??
geez

@_@

till then everyone..

love,
sahara

*Sahara.. Never Forget..Never Forgive~

2008-01-27T22:29:00.001+08:00

Life has been going on kinda alrite..
projs are still the major things in ma life now..
but in the midst of all this stress..

lovely pple still brightens up ma day..
:)

On a thurday afternoon..
in sch..

Nasreen smiles makes me smile too..

In lecture on a friday afternoon..

syam also never fails to make me smile
:)

i was, as usually playing ard during class..
its like pure boredom!

(dats Sir Praba @ the back!)

This time round..
im impress with NENEK..
she looks decent here..
BUT!
look look..
she staring at me..
geez..

Ouh!..
on the thursday..
poor Aqilah wasn't feeling too good..
she tossed and turned..
but it still aint helping her get well..

After dat..
saturday..
meet up with NENI DAYANA..
spent ultimate time with her..

i mean..
even when its just the 2 of us..
its pure fun!..

passed her..
the customized doughnut i made for her..
:)

i LOVE this pic of her's
look at NENI..
she look like..
Strawberry Shortcake!
haha..

her cartoon character!
:)

While on our way back home,
went over to 7-eleven for a while..
& this is what we saw..

BANANA SINGLE..

poor favourites of mine..
how come u are still single..
just like me..

dats explain y i soo sooo love Banana..
cos we are all singles!
:)

till en everyone..
take care..
& rest well

love,
sahara

*Sahara..Lets not wait till the water runs dry~

2008-01-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

Im sure many noes..
one thing dat definitely will put a smile on ma face..
BANANA!..
yes..

after so long..
im putting up this pic..
the banana i received from xinhui, xiaoli & hui ping..
for my bdae last year..
it was the biggest..
amg my collection..
i love it so much
:)

But after yesterday..
it got defeated..
a group of lovely pple..
bought for me a huge huge huge BANANA!..
it was a gift..
from the A-Team..

THANK YOU SO MUCHIE!!
:D

Thank you to all who came down yesterday to support me..
lovely seha!
i din manage to grab a pic with u..

Ultimate Andy for the hair- do!

Benedict..
even when u're late..
im still grateful for being my punching bag..
when i was oh so nervous back stage..
& thanks for being "my guitarist"..

to all who wished me luck..
thank u as well..

while waiting for the moment of truth..
i manage to snap pic with Felicia & Mandy

Thanks Feli for calling me Beyonce..
hehe
"dee don jealous arh!"

Mandy.. u sing like an angel..
with the high pitch and all..
its over & thanks for being there for me..
esp sticking with me during rehearsal & everything..

u look good with straight hair!
:)

& as for me..
life goes on..
filled with love & thanks

love,
sahara

*Sahara.. Purest Of Pain~

2008-01-19T21:54:00.000+08:00

fIRST and ForemoSt!..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NORDIANA BTE ZALANI!

20 years old la sey...
old hah!

a quote from ur dad
"ingat nana dah tua!" (remember u're old now)

Hehehe..

a surprise for her early in the morning..
all the way to ma forbidden city..
WOODLANDS!..

geeezzzz....

its been like 3 full years..
since i last step there to actualli spend ma time..
but for dee..
i went all the way la sey..
tsk tsk tsk..

Below wld be the series of photos we took..
starting off..
with dee..
and her cake..
special thanks to Fara mom..
for the wonderful yet sinful cake..

p.s..DEE haven bath yet..
dats y she hide her face..
hehehe...

(kenet means small/short/petite)

Before we move on..
this are the planner for this event..
Me the Evil Queen
Seha the Sewel (crazy)
Neni the anak Cine (Chinese daughter)

after forcing dee for a pic..
we headed to the playground near by..
as u can see..
seha starts acting as her usual self..
the sewel girl..

Yup..
dats us..
=)

Not wanting to be left out..
seha joined us..
n we are complete..
early morning sey..
go playground!

hehehe

After dat..
we waited for dee..
to get changed..
she took abt an hour la sey..
luckily..
she send Amir.. her cute bro down..
with coke..
else we could have died of thirst..
=X

After dat..
we headed to Causeway Point..
CAN U BELIEVE THAT!!..
i actually went to CAUSEWAY POINT..
my FORBIDDEN CITY la sey!

we ate lunch..
played a few games in the arcade..
then we headed to someplace where we finish our cake..
:)

then then then..
our fav!..
cam-whore..

i just love timer functions..
everyone get to be in the pic!
:))

US!..
sitting down..
i love the grass..
i love love love
:))))

US!
standing..

Then we became a little noty..
we did our poses

Then a little more naughtier..
we did the interpretation of US..

Seha Sewel..
Nen anak Cine..
Dee Kenet..
Me..Evil Queen..

After dat..
we ran for our life..
actualli..
i din run..
i just stood there..
but it looked good..
it feels like im first!!..
hehe..
:))

Then..
Seha got tired running up n down the hill..
she helped us take our pic..
hehe

This are the two..
who bulies me in secret..
now its known to public!..

Just something we three love to do..

Im trying to be..
a diva..
POSE!~

they just love to take shelter behind me..
geeez..
but i LIKE!
:)

& SO..

i, sahara, hereby declare..
i love today..
& i want more of it..
happy birthday dee..
:)

love,

sahara

*Sahara..Secret Lover

2008-01-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

Actualli..

im not feeling too good..

my head spins like mad..

my eyes are screamin in pain..

my heart beat isn't stable..

i seriously have no mood watsoever..

to blog or do projs..

but..

one thing never fails to make me go on..

this one person whom i noe..

i have always been very mean to..

but this person is patient n forgiving..

since Aqilah has waited patiently to view this entry..

here goes..

the tribute to..

MARCELLIAN ARLANY..

its called..

" Her daily Pose"

The most classic of all..

is when i tease her so much..

that she gave me her..

"cant be bothered face"..

(my fav!)

After laughing along with all our jokes..

moving her body up and down laughing..

she will adjust her shirt like this..

When she tries to give me that "scary" look of hers..

she always fails..

geez

Here, she's actualli trying to make that "pig face"of hers by lifting her nose..

unfortunately..we use one finger..

she uses all her five fingers..

marvellous!

When things goes a little out of hand..
she will try to cover up her face..but sadly..
she always fails..

When she realizes that..
she will bend down n try to use her body to cover up..
geeezz

And when she realize all her attemp failed..
she tries to "seduce" me..
to stop my nonsense..
and yet again..
she failed..
geezz..
poor marcel..

well dats the end of it..

till en everyone..

take care..

love,
sahara

*Sahara..Sinful Acts~

2008-01-14T22:30:00.001+08:00

my back was hurting..
my brain juices are squeezzed out..
my eyes are pressured..
my butt is flattened..
my fingers are numb..

since morning..
since morning la sey..
i've been staring at my comp..
thank god class was cancelled..

all the way..
mornin' till nite..
from 9am till now
and still going "strong"..
been staring la sey

en suddenly..
at 10.35pm..
a kind soul..
very kind soul..
made me smile..

as we were chatting..
he thank me for being there for him..
he said..

~~~ Guessy0urself ~~~ says:
you are my best online partner
~~~ Guessy0urself ~~~ says:
lol
~~~ Guessy0urself ~~~ says:
always listen to me attentively

Thank you Osman..
u have certainly made my day..
it feels good dat someone appreciate ur actions..
:)

u are my best online partner too!

till en everone..
jia you!..

smile always..
if u feel dizzy and stuff..
S.T.O.P..
take a break..
rest and smile it all away

love,
sahara

*Sahara..Pls Stay~

2008-01-12T17:07:00.000+08:00

The person who owns this blog..

is in love with this man..

his voice is beyond the heaven..

and he's super sexy..

she wan can?!

He's non other than..

Brian McKnight!

Doesn't he look like that SW guy!

maybe just the skin tone

geez..

*SaHAra.. Careless Whisper~

2008-01-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

ok!..

as promised..
here's an exclusive entry..

specially dedicated to that someone special..

YES..YES..

i noe most of u all are waiting for it..

esp my dearest and beloved classmates!

hehe..

to this special someone..

i told u rite..

i will make u popular..

i always keep my promises..

after this..

geezz..

u can take over my job of "meet the fan session"..

presenting to u..

the most aniticipated..

and the most UNGLAMOUROUS..

pic of our very own..

Mis- Understanding

a.k.a

Mis- Ahhhhhhh

a.k.a

Mis- Duuuuuuuuhhh

a.k.a

Nenek (Grandma in malay)

a.k.a

FISHBALL!!!

MARCELLIAN ARLANY!

GO FIGURE!

*sAHaRa.. Sinful Moments!

2008-01-06T22:05:00.000+08:00

haha..
ok the previous entry..

has definitely brought unhappiness to some pple..
they were expecting a diff outcome..
but it was dissapointment as they read on..
its just abt BANANA!..
haha..

ok la..
my mistake
i over abit..
haha!..

apologies to all..
esp NENI DAYANA!..
yes i know u so wanna sepak (slap) me..
hehe..
geezzz....

but BANANA la sey
tempting..
hehe..

okok...
thank you to all readers who constantly visit this blog..
esp shila..
for asking me to update!..
haha..
i shall post this song lyrics..

hear it..
read it..
its for y'all..
its a motivational song..
esp for ladies who are finding the strength within u..
to move on..

Lesson Learned by Alicia Keys..
:)

"He broke my heart
and now it's raining
Just to rub it in..
I'm at your door

I feel so crazy bout'
You say I told you so
You saw it long ago
You knew he had to go..

I finally came around
I'm back on solid ground
Can't let it get me down

It's alright it's alright
It's alright It's alright

Yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned.
Mistakes Overturned but I call it a lesson learned.
My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned.
Another lesson Learned..

Sometimes some lies
can take a minute to fully realize
His tears your eyes..
30 seconds to apoligize

You give it one more chance
just like the time before
but he already knows you'd give a hundred more

until that night in bed
You wake up in a sweat
You're racing to the door
Can't take it anymore

I was burned but I call it a lesson learned
Mistakes overturned but i call it lesson learned.
My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned....

Life perfect, aint perfect if you don't know what the struggles for
Falling down aint falling down if you don't cry when you hit the floor
It's called the past 'cause im getting past and i'm nothing like I was before
You ought to see me now..

Yes..I was burned but I call it a lesson learned
Mistakes overturned but i call it lesson learned
My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned.... "

love,
sahara

*Sahara..Peace YO!~

2008-01-04T20:29:00.000+08:00

I was waiting for a bus on ma way home today..
While my fav songs was blasting away in my ears..
i felt peace and great..

when i made a right turn..
im shocked!..
i saw it lying helplessly on the bench..
Not 1....SEVERAL...

notice the dustbin nearby..
its standing there..
waiting...

this is..
a disgrace for banana lovers..
geezz..

Im dissapointed..
whoever did it..
has definitely left me wit a bad impression..

Banana is like the joy in the world..
if this kinda pple..
aint responsible engh..
to throw the skin away..
geezz..
eat something else..
like.........................
i dunno..
something else..

GeeeeeZZzzzzzzzzzzzz

Such a mood spoiler..
i need to go eat some BANANA..
i need to calm myself down..
&
i will DEFINITELY..
throw the skin into the rite place..
where it belong..
geezz..

*sAhara..lesson learned~

2008-01-04T00:26:00.000+08:00

Today was fine..
Everything went all well..

im so glad pple ard me are feelin' happy..
seeing each of them smiling..
it makes me smile..

the pple i miss..
i've met & hugged..
i love life for now..
besides the fact..
projs are killing..
time is not on my side..
im accomodating..
:)

Beautiful Hong Ling was smiling away..
a hug from her washes all tiredness in sch..

Preety Xinhui all lovey dovey in class..
giving a hug is definitely something we both love..

Wonderful ladies Neera & Shai..
their smile never fails to make my day..
a hug from each of them..
wat more can i ask for!
i miss them plenty..

Loveliest dee on the way..
saying hi.. both of us smiling like a moron to each other..
has definitely add pluss points to my day..

My 4 women!..
Nasreen.. Aqilah.. Marcel.. Syam..
laughing our way thru tutorials and lecture..
geezz..
wat can i do w/o u girls..

Sweetest Audrey..
that banana u gave..
i enjoy it to the max!..
more next time..
hehehe... :)

My Marjuk Bala..
although a little irritating..
but u're just irritatingly sweet..
:)

to the rest..
who made me smile..
thank you..
i love u all ok..

take care
& rest well

love,
sahara

*Sahara.. No Words

2008-01-01T20:48:00.000+08:00

This Entry as promised..
is for Nasreen..
hehe..
she jealous la..
i mention only Aqilah's name..
so yea..

actualli aint feel like blogging..
but for Nasreen sake..
haha..
i shall just blog abt this group of pple..
whom i miss badly..

yes!..
they are non-other than..
Students and teachers at AWWA special sch!..

Geeezzz..
i wanna go there again la sey..
i wanna be in their class..
play games with them..
go to the multi-sensory room..
play puzzles..
assist them during snack time..
go to soft play..

mann..
many many la!..

sch reopens for them tmr as well..
but i aint have the time to go there..
nevermind will find time..
:)

My beloved Boy!

HARRY!

I MISS HIM THE MOST LA!!!

GEEEZZZZZZZZZZ..

love,
sahara

* SaharA.. Smile It AwaY

2007-12-31T21:54:00.000+08:00

A beautiful song i found sung by Thor..
a song i can relate to..

this song is specially for u..
the once forgetten ME..
..Just one dance..

The moment I laid my eyes on you
I knew you were the one
I'll give my everything
my heart and my very soul
but little did i know you had
some one you love so real

You love him so much certainly
love so true
its a tie that no one can undo
but I'd still be waiting
don't know what tomorrow might bring
hoping there's a way and a chance someday
that you and I could share

Even just one dance
just one dance
let me put my arms around you
and pretend that you are mine

baby just one dance,
just one dance
I know you'll never be mine
but I'm gonna wait for all time
to have just one dance
just one dance
with you..

it's been three years
since you fell in love with him
oh girl I just can't bear the pain
but what can I do
I have fallen deeply for you
now my tears are falling freely
'cause you're not for me

just one dance
just one dance
let me put my arms around you
and pretend that you are mine

baby just one dance,
just one dance
I know you'll never be mine
but I'm gonna wait for all time
to have just one dance
just one dance
with you..

I know in this lifetime
it will never be you and me
I know this is wrong
I have to set these feelings free
but girl all I'm asking is
all I'm asking is
just one dance

*Sahara.. Love Me~

2007-12-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

Life has been nothing but projects..
& KOREAN DRAMA!!..

hehe..

unfortunately..
time is spend more on dramas..
how?..
my proj aint moving la sey..

today had fun..
for abt 2 hrs..
spent time with mama, dad & sis..
at SEMBAWANG PARK..
hehe..

went there to catch the breeze..
eat..
talk..
laugh..
make silly faces..
haha!..

im sure mama n dad had a plesant time together..
sis was emo in her inconsolable song..
hehe..
cute la she..
with her headphones and all..
:)

me?..
i was cool..
reminising..
doing the usual things i always do..
singing to myself..
enjoying every moment of ma life..

geez..
i just realise..
2008 is coming realli soon..
dont u think so..

just like everyone else..
i truly hope..
things goes well for me this year..
no high hopes..
cos i had some..
and i fell and hurt myself badly..
its too painful..

for this 2008..
i will definitely take things slow..
don expect too much cos expectation hurts..
when u don expect..every happening is a surprise..

geeez..
but 1 thing is for sure this 2008..
more BANANA!!..
its like a NO NO without banana..
banana is always my saviour when..
im sad..
im sick..
im hungry..
im lonely..
im happy..
im insane..
im..everything la!..

hehehe..

so yea..
actualli i oso donnoe wat else to say la sey
this entry is specially dedicated to Aqilah..
cos she did E-learning..

aqilah..
ask the rest to do their e-learning as well..
haha!..
extra reading for the mind..
:)

orite..
till en everyone..
have a pleasant day
&

Have a HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!..

love,
sahara

u noe..
yesterday..
while listenin to ma MP4..
i fell asleep..
i was awaken ard 3am..
with our song playing..
i noe..
yet another..
"this kinda entry"
wat to do..
this is the only place i can have my time..
to be the real me..

i wanted to delete our song..
it was the song u first smile at me..
it was the song u first wave at me..

u noe..
sometimes im angry at myself..
y in the world im thinkin abt all this..
i tell myself
"its ur PAST la sey"
no more of this..

then..
when i turn back..
i still see u..
i still hear abt u..
i still talk to u..
i still need u..

how?..
tell me..
how?..

i hate myself for feeling this way..
im hurting myself..
dats for sure..

each time after my prayers..
i seek god protection..
to give me strength..
and to forget u..
i guess..
it hasn't been answered..
not sure y..
but i don blame HIM..
for i noe..
he has my interest at heart..

to u..
take care..
have plenty of rest..
u truly need it..
if u're sick..
go see a doc even if u don like it..
if u need a shoulder..
im always here..
for thats the only thing i can do for u..
im afraid to do more..
for im afraid to lose u..
let things remain this way..
nothing more nothing less..

*SahaRa.. Down On Bended Knees~

2007-12-26T22:06:00.000+08:00

You used to be the one i praised..
you used to be the one i dream of every day..
you used to be the one i talked abt to my frens..
you used to be the one i cried for every nite..

after the day u said..
"its good enough u are in my fren list"..
we drifted apart..
no more hellos..
no more smile..
no more get together..
we just drifted apart..
cos i cant bear to even look into ur eyes..

after a while..
we met again..
got together..
n started laughing again..
we went back to square one..
but i stopped myself..
from getting tied down again..

as i sit down rite here..
thinking of wat is suppose to be between us..
i cant help it but cry..

my life has been like this without u..
though u are not by my side,
u have always been a part of me..

even though we are like this..
i can never deny u play a part in my life..
u took away a part of me..
never returned it..

2 years..
i spent my time waiting..
now i have moved on..
but dat small part of me..
still belongs to u..
no matter wat other say..
or ask me to do..
i can never deny it..

u came..
n went away..
now dat u are here ard me..
you are saying u are leaving again..

i don noe..
i just feel dat..
a big part of me will leave..
its hard..
everytime hearing u sick n not feeling well..
i just wish i can go to u n take care of u
but i noe it will never be..
u will never welcome me..
u will distance urself again..
for u have never open up urself after she left u..

when u whisper the words of goodbye..
i cant help but feel sorrow..
inside me..
its screaming..
don leave..
don go..
im not ready..

pls don say u're dying..
i noe u're sick..
but don say ur time is up..
even if ur world is dark..
and u don see the reason to live animore..

don forget..
u used to be the light in my life..
n has since been..
if u leave...
i don noe wat will my life be like..

though we have nothing to do with each other..
just friends..
but u used to be my life..
u used to be the very one i adore..
u used to be the one i waited patiently for..
u used to be the one i became crazy for..

so pls don say u're leaving..
for im not ready to be alone
eventhough we are far apart..
the tot of u not even in this world..
its too hard..

pls..
brace urself..
carry on living..
eventhough i aint have a chance to spent my life with u..
at least knowing u're doin well in this world..
here..still breathing..
im glad
it keeps my heart beating..

..a once forgotten ME..

love,
sahara

*SahaRA..u might be the heart beat of someone else..

2007-12-25T15:46:00.000+08:00

A song deep in my heart..
the beautiful rhythm i listen closely..
the wonderful meaning lingers in my mind..

cos My Sun Doesn't Shine Without You..

Charlie Wilson
Without You

"It feels like a lifetime,
a thousand days have passedby
Since I held you close to me
If I could see that smile from my friend
I know that I could live again
I need you here with me

Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right now you’re so far away
I hope and I pray
Somewhere in your heart
I’ll always stay

Dear, lately my sun doesn’t shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step and my last breath
and my life ending

Had to say just what I was feeling, dear..
Cause my sun doesn’t shine, sun doesn’t shine without you

This is more for me than for you
Dear..
I finally see there’s no substitute
For what we have
Do you know how much I love you

And what we share I can't forget
Dear a love like yours I'll never let
just slip away
Just promise that you'll stay

Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right now you're so far away
Gonna tell you and show you
Do whatever I can do to get back to you

Dear, lately my sun doesn't shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step and my last breath
and my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling, dear
cause my sun doesn't shine,Sun doesn't shine

Have you ever seen a flower that never blooms?
Seen a starless night without the moon
Well that's me without you
So come back and turn my nights into days

Dear, lately..
my sun doesn’t shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step and my last breath
and my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling, dear
Cause my sun doesn’t shine, sun doesn’t shine
without you"

love,
sahara

*SaHAra..without U~

2007-12-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

Im starting to look at my kitchen window again..
Im starting to talk abt u more often..
Im starting to ask mama where it went wrong..
Im starting to make irritating faces to dad when talking abt him..
Im starting to disturb sis mentionin' abt him..

Im going back into it..

Why..

i guess..
its simply because...

love,
sahara

*SahaRa..May i?

2007-12-22T00:27:00.000+08:00

Yesterday..
i had a dream..

i dreamt of u..
it has been sometime my dear..
when u held my hand..
i felt warm and ease..
ur touch is still felt even now..
each time i look at my left hand,
i could see yours on top of it...
that innocent smile..
that u showed while hiding our hands behind our back..
i could still remember..

how have u been, saudara?
i wonder

love,
sahara

*Sahara..DonT leT go~